| Soaperlol ( @ 2008-02-23 04:30:00 |
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A Daily Deviation? For me? You shouldn't have!
Kind of old since it happened three days ago...but hurraaah. 
Recent Commission Love

Self-Absorbed-Reminiscing-Thing:
The Daily Deviation stuff makes me remember when I first joined DA in 2003. I wanted hits, I wanted validation - never mind that I absolutely sucked. A year and a half later I was linked by The Best Page in the Universe from entering his illustration contest, and ended up with about 30,000 hits in a day. So I was 30,000 pageviews richer, but finally realized that hits didn't make me any better at drawing or lead to employers busting down my door for my prized Watase-wannabe style.
By DA standards I know that what the Rosa/Rydia picture got was totally not a lot of hits, but with raises in attention I always feel super self-conscious about anything I've ever posted online, EVER, then I delete old works or F-lock LJ entries (who seriously cares about those?). I'm terrible at handling even the smallest of spotlights, but one positive is an increased drive to perfect my work so no one has to see crap drawings from me anymore (even though that totally won't stop lololol).
Look at all this SUPER DD FAME going to my head, I'm SUPER FAMOUS NOW! So famous that I won't even lower myself to talk on THE LJ anymore. I think I'll stop doing commissions altogether, people should just start giving me money for being lil ol' me. Because I had a DD! LOVE ME!